replaced

Man, i don't know why but i feel like i am being replaced in a lot of things and by a lot of people. I am not doing as much as i use to in a lot of things, but not by choice. I know am sick, but I am still willing to put my energy towards what i like to do. I am still going to church tonight to edit. Tomorrow i get to figure out if i have a brain tumor. Man this is all just great news. Yay me. Maybe next someone will tell me I am dieing, i mean i have so much other great news!!!!

My decision

Its been about 3 years now since i made the decision to start working with computers and filming. I decided to branch off from everything else I was doing, Karate, soccer, playing out side with friends, etc. Anything that kids would normally do i stopped pretty much. Now I am thinking back and wondering if it was all worth it. What do i really have to show for what i have been doing, a few good videos... thats it. Its been fun and I have gotten to do a lot of cool things with this path, like go and take a tour of CNN that no one can pay for, how awesome is that? I mean its CNN, its one of the biggest news broadcasting stations there is. I just hope that taking this path pays off, cause so far i have only been shot down by people, and it sucks. I dont even know what i want any more lol. I just hope thing work out.