Dear God,

Dear God,
"I have been a good boy this year. Wait, i have been a decent boy this year. Wait, i have been some what good this year god. Ok, i have been another spoiled, bad, unworthy boy this year. I am sorry lord. Please forgive me for my sins. I want to be a good Christian, but it seems so hard. I do love you, and i do believe in you. Lord, please help me grow in my faith. I don't want to be away from you for a second. I love you my father. Its in your name i pray, Amen."

Ever felt your self praying a prayer like that, or something similar. I bet you have, well if you are a real Christian you probably have. We all do our sins with no problem, but when we look at it later we feel bad about it. its so easy to commit the sin, but recovering from it and redeeming your self is so much harder. Humans are born with a closed door to change, and opening that door isn't easy. I know i have prayed this prayer a bunch of times, in many different versions. Asking for forgiveness is the first step, and many of us have taken it, but now its time for the second step. Its time to put your faith in action. Its time to prove to God we do love him, we do appreciate what he did for us over 2000 years ago. Show your faith. Pray a little prayer of faith and do a little action of it while your at it. Actions speak louder than words. I know you have heard that, well its true. Happy early Holiday's to all of you, and be sure to show your love to god this year, and every year.

Giving up

Man, what an easy thing that is to do. Just give up. How easy life would be if thats all we had to do. Seems like such a perfect path to take when things get tough. Yay...not so much. Me and my parents where talking the other day at the dinner table about my business. I don't have any idea how it all came up, but it did. My dad was telling me to Aim high and land in the middle. I laughed. It seems like a such a good idea though doesn't it. To aim high and land in the middle. Most people would agree. Well im not most. This is what i said. Well dad, im gonna aim higher and land farther, and if i cant do that, ill go work at McDonalds. You must think im kidding. Who would give up a company that is partially successful. See, there is that word i don't like, Partially. Such a terrible word. I hate it. I don't want to do anything partially. If i can't hit high, i am not cut out for the business world. With the way the world works, you have to be great to be good. You know, i at first thought looking at people my age or younger that are succeeding at what they do was aggravating, now i think of it differently. I think of it like this, "god im happy to be a part of this new generation" Its motivation to keep me going. Ya sure, i haven't seen any one my age with a successful company that is designed like blade tech, or any company for that matter, but still, it proves we can do what the older generation thinks we cant. Thats why my goals are high. so stop telling me to aim high and land in the middle please, cause i rather work at fast food than be in the middle.

I miss you

Every time i see your picture i cry. Every time i think about you i cry. Every time i talk to you, i cherish the moments. I miss you. Its hard not seeing you. Its hard being apart from you. I have known you for so long, and now your gone. Its not fair. All the fun times we had together, all the great moments we had, and now its all gone. You grew up, moved on, and now your gone. You where more than a friend, you where my sister. Thats the greatest position any one could have, and it was given to you, and you filled the spot perfectly, but now your gone. Your gone, not to return for a good long time. Why has life brought us apart, especially when i really need you? Why did you have to go, it all happened so fast, i didn't even have time to blink. Once i did, i realized you where gone, and that i was alone, and the fun was gone with you. Now life has changed for me, i no longer have any one to wake up and go to when i need help, or ask advice from when i need. I no longer have the person that would make sure im ok, when im sad, alone, angry, or even happy. We use to go to the park, play around, have a picnic, and just talk, now we email each other back and forth and have an occasional talk on the phone. I wish it was the same, but sadly its not. I have lost my friend, my sister, my help. I only hope that you come back soon, cause i could use the comfort right about now. I love you Natasha, you are my sister.