So I could easily go off and say how I feel on this blog, but if I did that, I would be blaming others for things they don't deserve to be blamed for...or at least that is how I am going to put it. I feel it is me right now, maybe someone else will disagree. I can't say to much...but I will say some.
I think I am anti social...not that wrong. hmmm.... I think I am anti relationship (the whole bf gf thing). Is it the commitment issue? maybe. I haven't figured it out yet. All I know is that I can't seem to keep a relationship no matter how much I "love them. (love is in quotations because can you honestly be in love at my age? YES! I just do it for all the gosh for saken people he think we aren't grown up enough to do anything lol) any ways. I don't blame anyone I dated for breaking up with me, or even hating me. While I may think there reasoning is a little off, I must say that they made a great move. Honestly, I don't think I am the one for someone to make a lifetime commitment to. Don't worry, I am not gonna jump off a bridge (while some may want me to) or blow my head off lol. I am going on my life as normal, and as god intended. I just felt that I should put the blame on me for once.
Posts
6 comments:
You forgot getting eaten by lions. It's ok. We still hate you. jk
Same to you. Frankly, I could care less. I put truthful things on my blog, so you can read them whenever you want.
I hate to say it, but you were.
I don't think you can quite grasp how i felt being the girl who had a boyfriend but hadn't even come close to kissing, or even for that matter, hugging full on. I'm finally in a better place now, and I'm so excited about that.
I can't help but feel animosity towards you right now though. I've moved on, as is kind of evident in that blog, but ask any girl, ex-boyfriends that ended badly are hard to accept. Hearing the things I've heard that you have said about me hurts more than any break up could, because I really did trust you. I never thought I could trust a boyfriend so much at such a young age but I did.
for all intents and purposes, I was falling for you, but I don't think you really felt the same way. You may have wanted to, but I don't think you did. Saying something is one thing, doing it is a completely different task though. If you had honestly felt the same way, it would've been evident in more ways than you can imagine.
Girls have a 6th sense about these things, trust me.
Hope all is well
Kelsey
Like I said yesterday, i think you wanted to. But simon, if you had really and truly fallen for me, you would have WANTED to be closer.
and another thing- I heard the same EXACT thing from 2 different people who aren't talking, and therefore couldn't have collaborated on their story about what you said. Jessica has my best interest at heart, as I've learned in the past few weeks, as does Kristin. They both kept quiet because they thought I was happy with things the way they were
Simon,
The sorry's haven't fallen on deaf ears, they have been heard, and I forgave you quite sometime ago. the forgiving is the easy part. FORGETTING is my problem, and you not speaking to me, or having anything to do with me is what I need right now, to FORGET. You know me well enough to know that I can hold a grudge, but if you sincerely apologize, I'll forgive you, but I don't forget.
one more thing before I cut off communication with you for good-- delete your subscription to my blog.
Post a Comment