Tuesday, June 1, 2010

3 years free, clean, and alone?

Well, 3 years ago from today, I marked the day my ex and I split up. Thats right, I have been single for 3 years...why is this important, well, I am 17, which means I was 14, so I went 3 years, in my teen years, without a Girl friend, turning down anyone that asked me out, and pushing away any possible ask outs. Not that there where many, but there where a few. Anyways, this has been an interesting 3 years. No pressure to call/text someone everyday, or buy gifts for every romantic holiday that comes around, or anything like that. I have thought several times of asking girls out, there are actually 3 girls I like right now, and 2 like me. I promise if I asked them, they would tell me that I have been resisting though. I try not to be mean, but trusting another girl has been rough, my last break up didn't go so well, and after seeing most teenage relationships and how they go, it just looks like to much drama to add to my life. So, now I use some advice that I got from a wise man, my big bro. He told me, its better to date someone (different from going out, bf/gf) for a little while, get to know them better, see if they are someone you can get along with, then go out with them. I am starting to use that advice now. I got to much going on right now to rush into a relationship and get stuck with a bunch of drama, and lose a friend over it as well. Will I go 4 years, I don't know, maybe not, really been thinking about asking out a girl, but its a rough move, especially after 3 years lol. I know to some that isn't long, but to me, wow! I use to have at least 2 girl friends a year. I had 2 relationships last 6 months or longer, one of them being my last relationship, and like I said, it ended rough, and I really, really, REALLY liked her... One down flaw to being single for this long, TO MANY PEOPLE START ASKING QUESTIONS! Lol, sigh...oh questions, you never fail to come up. I honestly don't know what I think about having a girl friend or not though, its just, something I keep putting of thinking about, but I suppose its gotta come up eventually, i mean, am I really gonna stay single forever? I do want kids and a family some day...just gotta find that right girl I suppose, but I do have plenty of time, thats the beauty of only being 17 (like how I downsized my age a bit by saying only?) One thing is for sure, I will always have my family and friends. Friends like Rachael Callaway, who has started becoming like a second sister to me, and Linda, who recently has been someone that will listen to me and my obsessions...that can be annoying, and my brother Arya, who has really been helping me out this year, and my little cousin (or little brother as I call him) Guy, who doesn't realize how much he helps me! There are others that have been helpful, but these that I listed are the ones I could think of right now. I was actually around Guy a few weeks after my break up with my last GF 3 years ago, never told him, but he helped a lot that summer. And my brother Arya did as well. My friends and family are awesome, and I am thankful for them to get me through 3 years, and putting up with my CRAP! I know its rough. I have grown a lot in the past 3 years, hell, in the past year! And the upcoming summer seems promising...I just hope and pray for quality time with someone. And I pray that God keeps leading me in life, and help stay true and good to my family and friends.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

wow... that was a lot... and you say thats only half of it... you could write a book about it.hahahha i would have liked to have seen what you were like 3 years ago to see how much you really have changed.Just to let you know you are not alone.... you have several friends and family members that love and care about you. dont give up hope there is a girl out there for you it just takes time... so i hear from every one i tlk to. well i gtg ill tlk to you later. i hope you have a wonderful day. God is with you always. turn to him and he will guide you. can you tell who i am?

Luke Brodowski said...

I must agree with you, relationship are a lot having to do with drama, and I hate it but I've been on and off with this girl for a year, and we are pretty serious now. We matured out of the whole break up get back together stage and we are together again. :) it's really nice to have someone else always being there for you. She has become my best friend that I can go to anything to. And the romantic holidays aren't so bad ;) you feel me? Haha but I'm glad you thought everything through and you are a very intelligent man and your defintetly pointing your life towards the right directions. :)
-Luke Brodowski

simon said...

Thank ya Linda!

and Thanks Luke, i appreciate that man. Your a pretty awesome person yourself. I appreciate your input, it helps. Glad you and your GF are getting along, i know you like her.