Sunday, October 14, 2007

making a step towards faith

Ok so today I sat through probably one of the most important services at church that I could possibly hear. It was about porn. The name of the service is "porn Sunday" and i know most of you think that is funny but it was a very serious topic to cover, and im glad they did. They told me to do 2 things. 1 is to admit to god that I have an issue with porn. 2 is to tell some one. Well I decided at first to tell no one. Then I decided to tell not some ONE, but every one.(well every one that reads this). No it is not a major problem. Not it is not a major addiction. But no, I shouldn't even look at it once. Porn, as they said at church, is a relationship crusher. It may not seem like it is hurting those around you, but when you listen to the stories of others like I did today, and you listen to the statistics, and the truth. It is a real shocker, a real eye opener, a real brain opener. So Now I have done the confession parts. There is one more step though. Its stopping. I am only gonna be asking 2 people to monitor me as far as what sites im going to. I will be using a software from xxxchurch.com. It is a cool software they have where you download it, and every 2 or 4 weeks(it is your choice) it send a list to the 1 0r 2 people you selected of all the sites you visited that month. Now as they told me at church, DON'T go and ask some one who isn't going to help. Also another thing, for most of you who read this, I guarantee that maybe, just maybe, 3 or 4, maybe 5 of you will not have an issue. But this software will guarantee you wont visit those sites, unless you really want those people receive that list to know that you are visiting them. There is no cheating it, and if you do find a way, than the only person you are cheating is yourself, not some one else, but your self. Your also cheating god in a way. You cheating him by not following through on staying pure. So do the right thing, stop those bad habits, get rid of those magazines, those pictures on your computer, those websites, and the hardest one of all, those thoughts. That is probably what will be my hardest struggle, and possibly yours to. So do your self a favor, get some one to hold you accountable for being pure. Click the link above, it will take you straight to the download page, download it, and take a step toward being sexually pure. I wont be able to take back what I have done, but I can correct it now, and try and make up for it. If you catch it early, it may be easier to stop then it will 20 years from now when your wife wants to leave you cause you look at porn. You may not believe that is gonna happen, but from the stories i have heard today, and in the past, you would be amazed. If you haven't looked at porn yet, then that is AWESOME, keep it that way. Take every step and measure of caution to make sure it doesn't happen. Don't make the mistake that millions have, including me. I was lucky enough to have my church talk about it and help me change my ways, you can do the same. If I can send this not only to my parents, friends, family, and church members, also post it on myspace. I think the least you can do is confess to one person. whether it be your friend(a trustful one), a parent, sibling, church paster, or even if you really like me enough,lol, than me. But don't continue to do it. Don't continue to keep it a secret till it is to late. Stop it while you can. I know I am sort of repeating the same thing, but I could probably repeat it a thousand times and some of you still not get it. Any way, thats it for now. Thanks for listening, or reading, what ever.

4 comments:

Natasha Mathews said...

Hey Simon, I'm proud of you for sharing and for stopping - it's very brave of you. I know it's not easy to share, but the devil's power is in our shame, in hiding things in darkness. Once you put things in the light - the devil starts packing his bags, b/c it's over! Good for you! Your future wife is going to be very proud of you as well. :)

Anonymous said...

WOW Simon! That was really brave. Thanks for sharing. You know I'm always here for you. I think Natasha is right on, your future wife will be very proud of you and your marriage will be stronger because of it. Good work! We need more teenagers like you.

Bill said...

Great job Simon. I'll help keep you accountable if you want. I hope more of your friends will hear your words and deal with this. This will effect everything, so yes you gotta get it out of your life. Great job.

I know a guy that porn so effected his relationship that on his honeymoon he could not keep the porn images out of his head and it really ruied a very special time of his life and has really damaged his marriage.

PORN IS NOT WORTH IT. Great job Simon, let's get others to step up and get rid of it.

simon said...

Well thank you to all three of you. I appreciate all the kind words. Kelley, i know you will always be there for me, you always have been. Tasha, I hope i can just get a wife lol. And bill, I had planned on putting you on my xxxchurch list, you to kelley.